Why write?
I’ve been e-mailing a friend who works in the creative sector. He has a million stories in his head and will be a brilliant author once he takes the time to get them down on paper.
I asked him what he would write if given a deadline. “Interesting question,” he wrote back. “I probably wouldn’t get much done [at work] if I didn’t have deadlines and the pressure of knowing I’ll have to show it in front of my coworkers — kind of keeps your eye on quality.”
Why do writers write? Because they have to? Because they have a deadline to meet?
[As I heard Clarence Page, op-ed writer for the Chicago Tribune, say at a conference this summer, “Nothing helps focus the mind like a firm deadline.”]
Maybe that’s the case for the professional writer who needs to put food on the table and a car in the garage. But for amateur writers, or the aspiring (but not yet paid) novelists and short story writers, there have to be other factors involved. I think it boils down to pleasure — or pain.
For some, writing is a release. It’s the chance to describe the world in one’s own terms, without someone else’s filter.
There’s a moment at the end of Part I of Swann’s Way where the narrator discovers the sublime pleasure of getting a thought out of his head and on to paper. He remembers an incident when he’s a boy, riding in the carriage with a doctor, and they pass by the two steeples of Martinville in the setting sun. The sight is breathtaking for the boy and he notes:
“As I observed . . . the sunlight on their surfaces, I felt that I was not reaching the full depth of my impression, that something was behind that moment.” (184, Davis translation)
The sight (and later, the silhouettes after the sun has set) “appeared to me in the form of words that gave me pleasure…” and he asks for a pencil and paper and sets out to describe the scene before it’s escaped him completely.
What he writes is not exactly fabulous prose — he compares the steeples to birds, then to girls playing in twilight, then to flowers that merge into “a single black shape, charming and resigned, [that] fade away into the night.”
But the effect that his act of writing has is what makes the incident memorable:
“[When] I had finished writing it, I was so happy, I felt it had so perfectly relieved me of those steeples and what they had been hiding behind them, that, as if I myself was a hen and had just laid an egg, I began to sing at the top of my voice.” (186)
That’s why Proust writes. He experiences the world, he finds a way to describe it, and it’s there on paper for the rest of the world to see, even if his readers don’t see the same event the same way as he did. It’s innocent enough when he’s describing landscapes, but as he moves into Part II of Swann’s Way, I can see how his take on society and the characters in it is anything but conventional.
Salman Rushdie said in an interview on YouTube that writers are dangerous because they are subject to no one — they can show the world the way they see it, and that can be a threat for those in power.
And I get the impression now that I’m into Part II that Proust is working through some painful realities, trying to process battles that were fought in salons and restaurants. He wants to show the social spider web and the difficulties of negotiating a love that isn’t socially acceptable. Writing allows him to score points, to reframe the debate, to take it out of context.
It’s also clear that he refuses to go straight to the point — and that is his point. He might have won more readers if he stopped after the first 60 pages, but he has more — much, much more — to say. Like the boy narrator who refuses to obey his parents when they tell him to go to sleep without a fuss, Proust the author is unwilling to cut to the chase and advance the action without taking the long way around.
And, for Proust, therein lies the pleasure:
“And so the Meseglise way and the Guermantes way remain for me linked to many of the little events of that life which, of all the various lives we lead concurrently, is the most abundant in vicissitudes, the richest in episodes, I mean our intellectual life. . . . It is most especially as deep layers of my mental soil, as the firm ground on which I still stand, that I must think of the Meseglise way and the Guermantes way. It is because I believed in things and people they revealed to me are the only ones that I still take seriously today and that still bring me joy.” (187-188)
What brings you joy? Why do you write?
